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Feb. 28th, 2008 @ 07:39 pm (no subject)
My characters are dead and so I am now dead.

The curtains been dropped on my little stage

True not by me, but by a friend who was not

Nothing left but for the coroner to clean up this mess.
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May. 20th, 2006 @ 12:45 pm (no subject)
Ok, I just passed my second week of Jump school with flying colors literally. I didn't get a single 'No-go' on a single event this week. Now I just need to complete my jumps this week and I can get back home and enjoy life again. I have had the chance to meet some cool people here so the weekends go by quickly hanging out with my new friends. Still, I can't wait for that first bath in my own bathtub.

Oh and p.s. G if you are reading this I want to write up a Punisher application when I get back!
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It will hurt.
May. 13th, 2006 @ 12:47 pm (no subject)
So I'm still in school and I successfully completed my first week with flying colors. Besides being extremely sore and covered in bruises everything on that front is going great. Everything else is going a little down hill though. It would seem that 'the world' realizes I am indisposed and has begun raising its angry head in an effort to anger me. Its not to bad just a couple of the projects I have been desperately working on fell completely apart while my back was turned and I'm locked in a position where I can't do anything for at least two more weeks. I'll figure it out somehow though.
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shirley manson- no love
May. 6th, 2006 @ 04:34 pm (no subject)
Ok, for those keeping track I have successfully made it to Airborne school and I found a library so I will get to check my email on weekends. The one down side to being here is that apparently there is nothing but very poor cell phone reception so I'm lucky to get any calls.

Everything at school is alright. Its really easy to get dropped which is a bit nerve wrecking. We had 8 people dropped as of last night, but that was because they skipped out on duty. Its stupid how very jokingly some people are taking this course. I'm here for business after-all and its not what some people came to do. Anyways, have the first make or break thing on Monday morning, I have to pass a PT test to stay in school which is apparently what gets 20% of the class dropped so wish me luck. Be safe.
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Happy when it rains
Apr. 21st, 2006 @ 12:45 am To Quote Patrick Bateman
"...there is no real me, only an entity, something illusory, and though I can hide my cold gaze and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable.I simply am not there. It is hard for me to make sense on any given level. Myself is fabricated, an aberration. I am a noncontingent human being. My personality is sketchy and unformed, my heartlessness goes deep and is persistent. My conscience, my pity, my hopes disappeared a long time ago if they ever did exist. There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it. I have now surpassed. I still, though, hold on to one single bleak truth: no one is safe, nothing is redeemed. Yet I am blameless. Each model of human behavior must be assumed to have some validity. Is evil something you are? Or is it something you do? My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone IN fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this- and I have on countless times, in just about every act I've committed- and coming face-to-face with these truths, there is no catharsis. I gain no deeper knowledge about myself, no new understanding can be extracted from my telling. There has been no reason for me to tell you any of this. This confession has meant nothing"
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Apr. 20th, 2006 @ 03:16 pm (no subject)
So some people might be wondering why I'm not getting on more regularly. It turns out the apartment I had setup and I was going to live in didn't work out alright. That sucks and I had to spend all day finding an apartment last minute, but I was able to do it. Its a decent one too and not to expensive too boot. It definitely could have been worse, it just means that I will be without internet for a little bit more. At least its getting done though.
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Stake Vampires
Apr. 19th, 2006 @ 06:39 pm (no subject)
I really can't stand my friend anymore but I don't know what to do about it. Its one of those things where if I stop being friends with them I might feel better emotional, or I might just become even more sick with loneliness and disappear. I mean I love all my online friends, they mean a lot to me its just nice to have someone to meet up with in person and if I get rid of them I am left with a big fat zero for in person friends. And what exactly does it mean when someone tells you, you would come off better with more confidence but then belittles that confidence every chance she gets? Blah...

3. Black No. 1 ~Type O Negative~

She's in love with herself.
She likes the dark.
On her milk white neck.
The Devil's mark.
It's all Hallows Eve.
The moon is full.
Will she trick or treat.
I bet she will.

She's got a date at midnight.
With Nosferatu.
Oh baby, Lilly Munster.
Ain't got nothing on you.
Well when I called her evil.
She just laughed.
And cast that spell on me.
Boo Bitch Craft.

Yeah you wanna go out 'cause it's raining and blowing.
You can't go out 'cause your roots are showing.
Dye em black.
Black no. 1

Little wolf skin boots.
And clove cigarettes.
An erotic funeral.
For witch she's dressed.
Her perfume smells like.
Burning leaves.
Everyday is Halloween.

Loving you was like loving the dead.
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It will hurt.
Apr. 3rd, 2006 @ 12:20 pm (no subject)
So I guess I am adjusting to life on sleeping pills because I am getting better at sleeping on them last night. I'm also convinced last nights nightmare had a point. Ever since I've turned 13 I have suffered from night terrors, but I have yet to have a dream where I wake up and five minutes later fall back into like it was paused. It kept repeating everything so I have to believe there was some kind of point to it. At least the pills are working though. I just hope to get passed them and return to sleeping normal again.

I did get a lot of the huge stuff out of the way today. Turning in your equipment is the hardest part of clearing the post and I got a huge portion of it knocked out. I just have to do some follow up paperwork which is good. Sadly however; the easier it gets to transfer to Bragg the more my reasons to go their disappear. I should have gone to Lewis or Wainwright like I wanted to and just said 'fuck it' to everyone involved.

So the burn on my face from my first bar fight this weekend has healed up too. At least I got a scar defending a pretty woman (of course she would have to be a lesbian ;) ) scars just feel more worthwhile when you get them doing something. Speaking of which after seeing V for Vendetta I find a lot of my problems with the military and the system disappearing. It gave me a nice reminder of why things are worth fighting for.
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Murders and Executions
Mar. 31st, 2006 @ 07:24 pm (no subject)
You scored as Dracula. You are the smooth sexy cool Dracula. Patient and lustful. If you were any cooler youd be ice. Great style with a way of seducing those around you. And three brides who wouldn't want to be him.
















Deacon Frost






Whose your Vampire personality? (images)
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Rabbits wear glasses
Mar. 31st, 2006 @ 03:58 pm (no subject)
So I finally got to fall asleep without a sleeping pill last night, unfortunately it was after 3 straight hours of tossing and turning. I'm supposed to go and get professional sleeping pills next week but then I would be admitting to having a problem and I don't like to do that. Anyways, I think I'm more bothered by the dreams I'm having, I have always had strange dreams but I have never wanted to stay in them and lately every time I wake up I don't lament waking up at 0500 I lament that I didn't get to stay in my dreams. I wonder what thats about.
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Rabbits wear glasses